not sure

I´m really not sure what to write. Every time I get to the cyber it seems like there is just too much and I don´t know what to share. I can´t wait until I bring a computer back in october. At least that way I´ll be able to write the post any time and just upload it when i get online.

However, after writing this I realize that the problem isn´t just with blogging. I also haven´t really been journalling. In fact I haven´t journalled since may 8th. I know that might be more personal that many of you want to know, but I think it means that I´m doing ok.

When things are hard, confusing, or frustrating I write. When I´m comfortable and content I don´t feel that need.

I do, however, want to keep you updated as much as possible, so I will try to set aside my lack of motivation or focus and at least give a brief rundown of my activities.

Today (in an hour and a half) at 10pm Im headed to managua. Ill get in at 4am and despite my efforts will still have to pay 100 cordobas (just under 5 dollars) for a cab. HOwever, at least the cab has been peace corps approved and i have the taxi drivers info for safety reasons. I will spend the day in managua sleeping, taking a hot shower, eating in a mall food court, and buying contacts for my boyfriend. Monday I have a meeting with my maternal and child health sector to regroup after the first three months of service and go over some inservice things such as how to fill out our 4 month reports. Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday I will be back in my training town of Santa Teresa, Carazo for spanish classes. There is a cyber so I plan to get on and update about what ive been doing in site for the last couple of months. Also while in Carazo I plan to visit my family from training, eat eskimo with natalie and julianne, and eat a burger and strawberry milkshake at Terry´s Diner. I´m hoping to leave early on thursday to take the ferry from Granada back to san carlos, but im not sure if ill be able too.

Anyway, that is what´s coming up in my week. I´ll post more about my past in the coming days. I also hope to post more pics but my memory card with all the pics from the last three months got some kind of virus and is currently not functioning. When I take more with my other card and am brave enough to use my memory card reader at the cyber again I´ll share them.

So I guess that´s it for now. I´ve already been at the cybr for 2.5 hours and am thoroughly prepared to sleep well during my 6 hour bus ride.

Cheers and Paz,
Shona